It has been so long since my last entry

I do have all kinds of random thoughts going through my mind all the time. But most of the times when they hit me I am either sitting on the bus or lying in my bed, so I tend to forget about them the next morning. And I get lazy writing stuff from time to time, although I do have the habit of doodling things down on a notebook that I always carry with me.

Recently I 've thinking a lot. By a lot I mean a lot with capital A and L. Standing on the crossroad of time and things--- This is already the end of my second year in uni, yet there are still another two years waiting for me ahead; with the leaving of some people some memories will be kept deep in a conner of my mind, yet some more new exciting things are happening. People come and people go; my hairstyle changes from straight to wavy; what has always been there, is the thought that life and the procedure of growing up have given us. The older you are, the harder it is to make choices for life. And what's worse, sane people like us can't afford "choosing not to choose" (from Train Spotting) , because we are not guaranteed a chance to start all over.

So I think and I choose, to try to live a better life and become a better person day by day. I meet new people, and try not to be afraid to face my inner self or opinions from others. I am trying to think loud, and live out loud.

From today on I will try my best to write something here every once in a while. After all it's interesting to see what yourself used to be like and used to think several years later and discover the power of growth and time.

Finally...

Accidentally found out that Blogspot is available again in China while I was googling for Cory Kennedy this morning.
Finally be able to write in English and post it on a site I like. I don't know what exactly is going on here, that Youtube was banned for a while but is now working again, that my Bebo is gone, that Flickr is not available currently(that's where i put most of my valuable pics) and Wikipedia, my full-time lover, still can't be reached. I don't care what's the political deal here, but I ask for no more than a peaceful life, where I can read books, watch movies, take some pictures, write my blog and search for things that I am curious in.
Yet still it has been a delight to know that the things i write here won't be vanish out of a sudden. (wait..who knows what will happen tomorrow)

Despite the fact that my body is aching all over, I am quite content with my current life. Cory Kennedy can be a role model in her taste about fashion and a real example of how to become famous over night in the Internet era, but as for life style, well, I 'd choose something else.

Why don't we appreciate ourselves

I logged in my Chinese blog just now, only to find one new comment by Lucia: Jennie, I like you, in every way.
And this reminds me of some days ago when Suvi told me she liked me so much for everything. And also for Tammy's comment on facebook: "I am officially jealous of you! I want to trade place with you!"

Well, seems that I am envied by quite a lot of people. Why I am still unhappy and think my life as totally miserable? I used to envy Kev for his popularity. But he was always complaining and struggling. Now he's decided to give up everything he has here, for a total new life in Canada. A brave new world in front of you, Kev. Are you happy now?

And I do admire Suvi for she has got the only opportunity offered by government to study in Finland. She has been working so hard and finally get what she deserves. But she is still jealous of me and Kev..

I call this a bizzar jealousy triangle. (adapted from bizzar love triangle, by Frente!)
When can we stop looking at others and begin to appreciate we what already have?! It's always easy said than done, I am afraid.

All right.....

I admit the lack of perseverance. I know this is like.... my 100th blog?

Two reasons to justify my frequent changing of blogs:
1. I really can't bear the monotony of staring at the same skin and pattern everyday
2. I really want to find a neat and nice place where I can see ideas and thoughts of real decent people rather than old perverts or shallow guys who keep leaving comments like"hey ya super cool chick we should hang out sometime"

This is pretty much of it. I will certainly write more later on as I am now quite engaged in reading The Holy Bible and finishing my book report on it.

Don't leave irrelevant comment or total nonsense here!